Friday, December 29, 2006
i erm.. do realise that
the year is ending once again. party of the year or not.. new yr;s day coems every yr. i stand in shock now. and somwhat speechless too. i guess dreams reflect our inner thts and desires and worries and stress.. if that is so, i knwo exactly what i ll be screamin if i sleep talk.
i wun actually be screaming.. but i ll see the tangent curves and all of lives intercepts. gradients. i ll see u more clearly than u re now.. and i be drowning to ehar ur voice.. and all teh silly things u said.. liek ni hen piao liang.. i guess its proven.. wad u actively thk of in the day shows at night..
i erm dream of loses at night. that i ll wake up and find a nightmare in another. somedays im afraid this is all a dream other days i wish it was so.
i jsut learnt that a gd fren of mine lost his dad.
i rmb another fren of mine lost his mum when he was i np3.. i was so scared then. i didnt know what or how to feel. my mum said to cerish adn love everyone we have ard us.. b4 its too late
it is isnt it.
i feeel likea bad person neglectin and doubtin everyone ard me.
but i knwo i must count my blessing. the yr is turnin the corner. and there are many things ishuldbe grateful for.
i had lunch with kums today,..ha he let me try rock climbin..
first and foremost.. i m grate ful for the cahnce to be where i m ..really. i knwo thatits tough and there is possibly alotto be dissatisfied abt...but truly i m happy to bewherei m..
i m grateful that i have always done well.
grateful that i m surrounded by ppl who care for me.
even more grateful to be surrounded by ppl who trust me.
i m grateful that my mum is still.. getting by.
i m blessed. i know it. alot of ppl will be dyin to be where i m. i have been given so much grace.
i just hope i wun make the wrogn decisions when the time come. thati l lstil lkeep my state of mind.
the kiss of I would understand. at