Friday, December 08, 2006
i could take my whole damn life to make this right.
i havent blogged in ages but well i want to..its a gd way to keep track of my pendulous thoughts.. wait maybe not pendulous.. erratic.
so status now..
mid sem of medicine over..
Ca 1 over..
its december..
xmas approachin..
term has reached pseudoend( u realy feel and wish its the end of yr 1)
.. amt of sleep last night zero hours..
amout of losin myself.. and recreation..maximal..
amount of fun(good feelings).. classified..
spiritually relatively empty..
in love? lets not go there..well we are always in love arent we..
results achienvements.. usual.. nth less expected.. not fantastic..but u know the feelin is perhaps coupled to the above..
honestly i did quite well at least i feel that yeah i did above my expectations.. yeah they are super efficient at comin up with ur results here.. so far really quite good la.. better than..i guess can say so.. plenty of frens and ppl to thank.. rmb to give urself zero credits..
but then everytime it gets that way u will jsut sit back.. i dunno..and ponder.. its another exam.. ok u did not bad.. whats next? wait for the next exam.. sighsuddenly feelin very very pessimistic of this superficial life..
but its ok..
i did a lot of crazy stuff yet.. swam in the open sea,.went cyclin.. played soccer.. played non stop bridge polar bear.. went to eat prata and talked till u kinda become near monosyllabic.. but its ok..
i dun want to livet his life anymore.. ifeel so restrained.. as if my life belongs to someoen else..i wish there was more.. i wish i could choose.. i guess i m a roller not a scrunger.. haha but well i m a ctrl freak..and when i have ctrl i wouldnt know what more i need..
sigh so whats next.. hols trg? well actualli i sprained my toes.. i m limpin agn now.. nick the genius.. its damn pain.. i went to play bball and i thk its a lot worse now.. well done.. jsut compressed my entire hall stuff into a million plastic bags.. cute.
i guess i iwll jsut stay at home. i needa lot of that to ponder.. its the yr end.. i mean . i m really sleepy t otype in coherent sentences now. but this hAS BEEN QUITE a year..there was this whole big blur..or time frame seemingly sunctioned out of me.. its called ns..
but whateve.r.. whatevery gets u goin.. be it singin carols jay chou.. watchin a million vids on u tube from family guy to goodness gracious me.. to ian thorpe's strokes..
where does satiety come from.. who am i today..
i wanna travel. not jsut physically..i wanna depart. (to be continued)
the kiss of I would understand. at