Thursday, November 02, 2006
nobody knows the way its gonna be.
hmm ok i aim to sleep earler tonight. 2am.. sigh havent updated or use the coms in eons otehr than to do PBL problem ased learnin.. which is qutie interesting.
i never thought i saw myself readin up extra and so on..but yeah i love my course. just that man the pace is too merciless.
CA is really loomin by and i feel so way behind.. i m alr goin for lesstrg.. prob will make a diff frees up more time and i be less tired.. hais but i dun want to lose wadi ve gained ovrer trg.. sigh.
been sleepin at 3 consecutively at lest i nthe past i too kaft nps but i havent been doin so.. bleagh..
gonna play stephen lim on sat and that will be the last of playhouse.. ha my actin career. bleagh.. i m kinda worried i will screwup.. wads new nick.
i feel likei m in a total diff environment.. weill i am..
but it feels like u know studyin hangin out late into the night readin ..it reminds me of my japan days.. jsut hangin out look at the lamp post outside the study room..enjoyin the novelty of bein alone..stayin up late.. its just that feeli nwhen u get when u re either admitted in the hosp or just travelin alone overseas.. minus the stress..
andi m iss u so.. someone hasnt repliedm y email. bleagh.. prob havin too much fun. heh..
i needa life i guess.. but i cant see myself doin less.. biathlon, swimmin coachin tuition road relay.. playhse which is ending. .and readin textbooks over listenin to lectures..
i guessi a bsolutely ccant survive lectures.. anything more than ten mins and i feel liek i m bein tortured. u see.. thats y i dun have many frens.. or u know wadeva.. i cant stand havin to listen to ppl for too long..oops but isnt that wad a doc i supposed to do...
developin the love and stamina for readin text books is one thing.. but its not very good if ur attn oni lasts the front part and at the end stages of readin ..i m jsut readin the words without gettin the picture..sigh.
ok brain function decreases with lack of sleep too. and i promised to slp earlier.
i wanna go back to japan.
i wanna go back to thedays where i knwo what i m doin
i dun wanna doubt the person i m morphin into
i just wanna smile for no reason at all..
i want t o feel a lot lighter.
the kiss of I would understand. at