Monday, October 23, 2006
zipperng
horror and gasps.
today is hari raya puasa..and i m in a festive mood? yeah right.
i m on my chocolate diet ..its really bad i guess.. but nvm carnitine.
so random. i thk carnitine sounds lieka crude name for an enzyme.
argh.. metab metab..
best fren.. no one msges me anymore.. ha at least not for unofficial business..
just turnsout that i ve plenty of official stuff tosettle..
ok i decided that iprob stay in dec..after all i need tostudy and i be super busy. i ll make a point to go home as much as i can. it be too troublesome to move everything out yeah.
i can t wait for dec to come.. and it doesnt seem one bit far.. cos weeks are flyin by me.. CA is comin.. it shouldnt mean much i guess.. but hell it means a lot..
i cant wait for xmas. even tho i prob be in sg and not some european wonderland. haha
man. i need a holiday.. not a one day one.. somethign like 4 mths.. man i have been reviewin this yr..its so wow..
emotionally rollercoasterlly..
geez. first it was enthusiasm..enlistment.. then it was dread.. then it was boredom..then it was hell..then heaven then hell agn.. and now.. back to sch..and soon exams... its so eventfully eventless..
ok the yr is far from the end btu lets see.. iserved 6 mths of ns.. feelin a big confusion and blurness.. went to church.. then hmm went to different units... went for multiple interviews..tried multiple jobs.. and then got int omedicine.. and then ..study med..entered a world of totally unfamiliar faces..and then..realise that i m the unfamiliar one.. and woosh..now i ve lots to study.. i went fro mone full circle..sch out of sch and back to sch..
this is the first yr where things werent certain.but then agn many things are meant to be.. and beyond our ctrl.
who wuld have tht i still be i n sg.. that i be in nus studyin med..
so for eevrything that is uncertain.. du nrush me into makin a decision.
hurt. cos it hurts.
the kiss of I would understand. at