Thursday, September 14, 2006
its a thursday. there is no chill. one more week to first sch vaccation. ifsrt test comin up on monday tho.. hmm
yeah aint no chill.. i tht uni might mean i could be hangin out with frens go town watch movies..slack.. but so far.. its nth but a const worry that i cant keep up with werk.. even when u are not sure what u shoudl study..its a cause of worry..
i guess there is a lot of stuff idun unserstand yet.. and it scares me. and i haventbeen as focused as i 'd like to be.. and my memory aint really gd.. i dunno.. maybe they are allexcessive worries..
but i guess kenny G helps. yeaj listenin ot hte old sounds of havana and tunes like i will always love u..and so on..=) i love jazz.. sigh wish i could play hte sax.. and do many things right nick.
i cant deny that my mind stil lwants t odo many things.. go diving.. go cmbodia.. go bagpack go china.. go do more ccas..
but all i can think abt now.. is .. wad is gonna happne. tml.. next week, next two weeks next yr.. everything might jsut change.. will i ever knwo who i am..
erasing every bit of familiarity.. i wish i could take timeoff. cos a rational decision is oni made when one is allowed to be rational right? i want xmas. its the nicest feelin i can hope for now.
killin me softly.
but i mstil hopeful. happy where i m.. its where i always wanted to be. i jsut have to do well. yeah i ll cheer up if its the last thing i need to do.
the kiss of I would understand. at