Sunday, September 10, 2006
i always tht photos cheer ppl up. they do. but guess i m just really sad now.
ben readin up on lumbar fibrosis. and so on..
life can be cruel a i guess and faith is not a sure thing for me thus far. btu i went to the church today after a somewhat long hiatus. i really shouldbnt be bloggin now there are stuff to read up tutorial to do roo mto pack..need to bathe.. hell.
but i guess goin home..watchin the useless old man bein totally ignorant abt ath..complanin that he cant watch tv cos my bro is havi nhis prelims.. and so on.. and jsut sittin on the bench thinkin solely abt himself in every possible way. it aches.
i wish i can do more. man. i could lose myslefi n my text books.
are u testin me? i dunno.. thankfully i got anotther student ..sorta.. but exam period comin..and soon they will all stop for the hols.. hmm i was afraid of goin back to churhc.. icant imagine..jumpinandpraisin.. the lord today.. i know its the wrong attitude.. but i guess i nv had the right attitude. but when they played fro mthe inside out. .i was really relieved...cos i was hopin that they will play it in the mornin,,its one of those songs that i fee llalot beter after hearin..
eyah i shuld try to cher up and be positive..and not affect everyone ard me.. med bal lphotos arent nice.. but nv mind.. maybe i ll post them anyhow..
and yeah i m not gona lose my faith this time. no matter wad hits.
no matter what.. and if a spinal cord has to be ruined..if a leg has to be lost ..if anything at all.. take mine. please.
and no matter wat i ll stand there. i wish i didnt ve to feel like cryin. i wish i was stronger and s omuch more. i wish i was a better son. i wish i can always make u proud. i swear i ll.
the week is gonna feel worse. 7 more days.
the kiss of I would understand. at