Saturday, August 19, 2006
yeah shout it out. the first msn nic on my list says integrity doin the right thing even when no one is watchin. no prize for guessin whose nic that is.
doi nthe right thing eh..nick hasnt been doi nso apparently. hot on the tail. time was poorly spent today..werkin and then dunno wad..read afew pages of weather..went back to hal lto dump clothes cos dad has vehicle todya ..retrieved lap to pfrom hal land yeah been playi nwith it..
went to lijuan's hse forhse warmin and celebrated jed's bday..
life is like an a sequence of actions and long broing readouts..
i feel a bit depressed now. cos i saw u today and u re leavin and i worry i will not get used to nto seei nu anymore.. haiyo but i should be happy cos we are all leadin our dreams..adn we are gonna study and do what we always (pok maybe not always)want to do..i feel really happy for u. but i m selfish everytime i think of it i wish i could keep u in my pocket .. shrink u..
the brighter side of life comes in white and has a concave apple on the surface. so says my fren. ur truly technical subsitute that is infinitely more reliable that the ncertainties of bei nhuman..
and so we keep on scringing.. iwanan do alotof stuff go cambodia do lots of community werk..backpack..dive..and much more..but mumy dearest whpo wun stop coughin..has oni this to say.nola study first next time al ot of chance.. better make it alot of money involved..divin next tiem la..everything is expenses..how much? alto of money leh..even buyin a gift unnecessarily warrnated me a scoldin..boo next yr my rich frens are gonna drive their own car..ok
ok watch ur thts nick cos they are uinhealthy. i mean wh ocares abt the rich ppl..has it ever affected me..no..i ve been surrounded by rich losers all my life.. i have werked and study anw..its juts that i relaly wish i could do so much,...go dive travel..i dunno..i dunno ok.. i m bein naive..i told my parents that the 4mths hols nect yr will be the best longest break i have for the next 15 yrsand they be like..no la sure havechance..nex ti me no hols meh..cannot take leave meh..truth is yeah really cannot..but oh well..tehy woudlnt know..adn utr truly..maybe i really ought to just think abt doin well..
and not ath else..so that aspect of life is scringed.
ppl ask mi wad cca i join i said aquathlon..adn the ybe like wads that cos i thin ki cant pronounce it.. and when they finally get it hey be like..wah i m competin too or wadeva..haiyo but i dunmo how to tell hthem that im not really pro..adn i du nintend to competet.i jsut liek to run and swi malot..enthusiast.. btu competiton..i dun want..cps a lot of expenses..i jsut wanna train to keep my sanity. btu i guess eventuali i ll be takin part..with nus..
and the third scringin
blegh my og seems very interested i who i l lliek i nmed.. somehow they seem very sure i ll get attached soon or will be hittin on someone soon.. bleagh..but well look at me..my life is a mess. these pp lare way to ogd for me.. i will never own a car in the next wad ten yrs? heh i ll never be deans lister.. i m short a bag of worries.. broke.. and du nlike mixin ard..and worst of all..i m hopelessly wishin for a miracle. that may nv come. so pls.. i dun have the confidence or the urge to "gp after anyone" its too draining. at least not for now. i stil lfeel unstable.
it beats too fast. when it sees u. saltatory.
the kiss of I would understand. at