Sunday, July 23, 2006
saigo
felt wrong..instead of going to church today i went to a temple.
i went to meet my surety..i half wish my surety was just someone i know liek my uncle. or wad..it really should have been. but my muminsist on usin my dad;s fren as my uncles may come in inemergency cases like last min bank loans blah blah..women are really shrewd creatures.
anyhow.
i reminded him to bring his income statement yeah and he said well if i can trust u u must learnt otrust me too..and he gives u that look... ok. dude its not abt trust if u screw up my matri there be no trust or love to speak of. btu well.. yes. trust. a very fishy fishy word.
anyway
my parents bicker onstop over the miniest issue and i dunno they pronb will never get along..sometimesi feel liek a coward i wish i was livin far far away from everything as if it s got nth t odo with me. .u know if i own a hostel at least i can have my pseudo life.
jsut a tht. of cos its not true i want to be wit hmy mummy always. btu sometimes its just too pain ful u know ..to see ehr not smilin and bein upset all day. u just wish u werenta part of this world . right nick?
so i had a frumpy bday dinner but anw i was feeli nreally lousy..totally drowsy this medicine is really strong stuff.. ihave necer felt my heart beat so fast b4 and uknow jsut bein totally unableto stay awake.. i thik i really shouldnt eat them tml.. sigh..
i prob should be sleepin
but my mind is tht laden.admist the drowsiness. i realised i havent spoken to someone in a century. yeah. and yeah and yeah. jitsu wa..experiment.
the kiss of I would understand. at