Monday, July 10, 2006
lydia 迷离的眼眶
为何流浪
心碎的海洋
受了伤连微笑都彷徨
gypsy女郎
为谁而唱
你会看见雾看见云看见太阳
龟裂的大地重复着悲伤
他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方等待爱飞翔
lydia 幸福不在远方
开一扇窗
许下愿望
你会感受爱感受恨感受原谅
生命总不会只充满悲伤
他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方等待爱飞翔
suddenly the song seems really nice. i wanna go swimmin today but the timing aint right. i wanna go drown today but the timin is perfect.
identifyin my inquities is easier than i tht.
i ve been studyin my fam and parents as a result.. and i see where many of my behaviour patterns might have come from..sheesh do i sound wrong?
emotional ppl. over emotional. constantly need to feel impt.. gets really upset and the nthe ches pains sets in.. thats both my parents.
my dad cant get a simple job done.. ok he wants to feel involved whatever.. finally he has sth to be proud of this son i guess.. sorry. but i vaguely recall this one to one session where i had to ans three questions
describe ur dad in one word: a disaster
describe ur relationship with ur dad: huh? i dunno. non-existent?
do u love ur father? i : i dun wanna sound mean. i ll pass on the question.
yeah so he was first tovolunteered to find a surety.. ok number one..he listens with his ear but its as if his head is a separate organ. like the info dooesnt reach the head or sth..so he was quick to say this fren he barely know is very nice..and will be my surety..well fine.. i could reserve better candidates for better use..i eman yeah i may need a loan someday.. so fine.. and he asked a million qns when the task is really simple.. get a surety.. the surety must bring his income statement on the signin of contract date and in the case where i break bond the surety is liek my gurantor yeah..sounds simple right.. and of cos the surety must know and trust me.. he kept sayin things like oh this guy nop roblem la very rich can help me get alot of money and long as he sign.. so obvsiously he doesnt understnad wadi m sayin..i m not askin for money la.. the govt takes care of their precious few talents dude..grr..i just need him to make sure he brings a chap along wioth their income statemewnt on that day..its like any other scholarship la..wah lau..not first ime i gettin scholarships right just that now the um very big andits a five yr bond med contract..
he lieks to exagerrate things and keeps accusin me of not readin properly..the thing is i prob read the letter a million times..i mean u knwo how happty i was to get into med right..yeah its a simple thing la..get someoen to sign he had two mths to find ppl. he keep insistin on this fren of his who is ver yrich.. he doesnt get it thats not the point.. i hate talki nt omy dad its like talkin to a snail. i think i yell at a snai lit will oso know to siam..yeah so last night he came into the hse and say the guy spoke to him and was abt t osign but pen know ink..he let the guy keep the letter..he got so many things wrong FIRST he cant let the guy KEEP the LETTER its mine.. and second the GUY is not the firs tsurety u have to be the first la.. uare the father leh..wah lau.. the guy kept askin so u mean if u die and ur son dropos out i have to pay everything...
hais i believe there are nice ppl in this world but i du nbalem it he doesnt knwo me.. who i m or wad..its liek if its any of my relative they wun even ask la.. they be happy to support me..tho i pro bhave to endure lousy cNys but thats a different story..
yeah i told my dad its all abt trust ..thats wad it means to be a gurantor.. its a ver ysimple issue.. and i thin k u shuld let me speak to the guy..god knows what he has said man.. he prob interpreted the issue toi the guy is three billion different "languages" such that it sounds totally off.. yeah off tangent man. i ve doen so many omaths papers...
and this morni nhe woke u pand said.. call ur uncle stand by..
wad he talkin abt where got standby one.. and my uncle wil lbe hurt oso ewad.. liek oh hello can u sdtand byu re my second choice.. rubbish right? how did i have a dad like him? bleh.
i fee lliek france now. liek a drunken zidane..doin rubbish..liek the vj guy who after comin in first for x country became crazy and go round slappin ppl..
argh.. and wai jia watched coldplay declarin it over msn..sheesh.. i actuali had a date t owatc hleh .. but i couldnt bear to part with my money..
argh waddehell.. my dad cant do the simplest stuff. i gotta move my horse alr..got thsi irritatin insurance babnk loaner who keeps msgin me telli nme abt soem investment paln and wantin to meet up with me.. i m gonan stopbein so friendly alr.. honestly i should have punched that guy who took my 4 bucks..jsut for anger relieve.
the kiss of I would understand. at