Saturday, July 15, 2006
where are u going?
my mum asked me..if i would ever say this " haiyo i miss army life.. i rather chong sua then go thru all these" in afew mths time..
ha its a very interesting qn. i hope not. yeah and nth can save me either if i really feel this way. (inner voice) its not too late nick..u havent marticulated! sheesh
lots of inner voice these days.. grrr.. the usual wishywashy uncertain guy that i m. .like hm shuld i change blogskin? hah aok i ll do it on my bday.. thats not a difficult question.
i have plenty of difficult qns..not all need ans most jsut need to be asked and askin is in itself the hardest part..i mean there are questions that by just askin uin itself the yare alr wrong..but anyway anyhow i l lthin of a way..liekthe sayin abt a boat and bridge and everythign becomin straight ...yeah that one..
sheesh.
i had a lot of cardiac werkout today..did a mini biathlon..haha no la..swam a bit today and the nimmediately went running and immediately went to do weights.. oh b4 that i went tannign too haha.. teh vain spot in me is workin up a fever..
fish memory.. eyah it feels gd to werkout.. went to check out my future home..i eman where i be putti nup when i study in nus.. sigh..ok with my uncle's fam.. i am really grateful dun get me wrong a nice dude is offerin me to put upat his palce ..admist all the possible inconveniences i may cause..but well i just ..think il lfeel awkward.. its nto that i m ungrateful btu i cant exactly say i m close to this uncle.. and certain events make change difficult.. yeah well change IS always difficult. i guessa ny other relative would have been easy for me..but they are sorta a yougn couple now..no not that they are young they have a young boy and the yjust got married..u know i dunno stayin there seems wrong.. and where is my civilian life if i m gonna feel restricted and oni go home on weekends! and i mean what if teh ywanna fight thrash things out or get really lovey dovey..wun i be in the way! sheesh.
sheesh indeed.. and i mean wun there be some curfew.and wad if they cook for me..can i turn down? haiyo and wad if by some dumb stroke of luck i get to in via the waitinglist.. am i to just pack my bags..wad is GOd;s will! ok hostel well..element of fun is there but most ppl in hostel du npass exams.. and then i dunno wad abt pgp its pretty cool too..likeownin ur own condo! bleagh.
why why.ljack u are so STUUU pid! u shuld have just applied then..
but the morning forgives all things. i dun think that its time that heals. i thin kits sleep that heals.. if u go to sleep angyr u prob wake up feelin better if u re super sad or angry u just need more sleep. haha.
in my dreams i be singing a duet and playing a piano.swimmin in mutton soup. and bein super in love with u. but those are just dreams.
i want to shop.
the kiss of I would understand. at