Tuesday, May 09, 2006
day off!
this is wad goes o nwhen i m in camp. sigh. the world
went t ontu for scholarship interview. hmm wasnt very pleasant i feel. as in hteinterview.
hais never mind . pls god pls let me get int omed in nus. i want to be doctor.
haha
future seems t obe unfoldin this month. everything may change.
NS may be put to a temp stop haha
or not then go to new camp or unit.
yeah future this mth is crucial.
crispina, hmm never had a gd impression of her. well i use to never have a gd impression of anyone. right i used to judge ppl alot. so met her at the interview today,
was contemplatin whether or not to say hi. but did anw.
hmm well she was really friendly fortunately.
and yeah we went t ohave lunch at billy bombers ha thanks to her voucher and after that took the train homw from boon lay! the other end of my beloved country.
ha lives intermingle all the time in the strangest way. whether it is in the unknown future or the past.
its amazing how connected ppl really ah tho they have barely spoken a word to each other. for starters every living human bein harness the same darn fear.
rejection, loss, denial. pretence.
but anw its best that things are brought into the open.
i missed my cert presentation but i m countin that its not much.
bleh.
departure entails that u hurry up and tell or say whatever u have to before its too lat.ebut is it ever too late. i asked for a sign. it said if u love her tell her.
ok
but wad if i cant live up to it. wad f i m not bold enuff ok bold is nto the right word.
i dunno it all seems uncertain. so if things are meant to be they are meant to be. meanwhile my dear fren i ll jsut appreciate wad little time we might have left . my dear little fren.
sigh its a stony day and my imagination is rtunnin wild. my sense of humor is goinup. for sense of humor.. the wordsi used at intertviews ever so often. if u ask mi sense of humor is a facade cos all clowns are really unhappy ppl.
there aint no happy joker.
so let me juggle for u to laugh.
my eyes are givin me problem again.
history repeats itself.
ima doko e iku ga ii?
no its not history.
the kiss of I would understand. at