Saturday, May 13, 2006
ndp rehearsal.
boy do i feel abandoned. i knwo im nto supposed to feel this way in fact i was feelin great. the thing sorta was over quickly and went smoothly. cloud cover came soon enuff and we were dismissed.
but the day is still a shitty one.
i feel so lonely now.
i m lsn my cool tooeasily. i m reacting againl today i kicked my fren in the stomach cos he was jut playin with me but i wasnt int hte mood. i really dislike this parade shit, i used to hk takin part itnthe parade woudl be cool but i guess it aint so.
and that i pulled my fren away fro ma fight that nearyl broke out.
its a day forcrows for more than one reason.
i jsut want t osleep adn not wake up on days liek this.
i met jerome ng. some of the cooler dudes of a fren i had i n vs.
he told me bk wasin ocs a nd resutls was quite gd.
i feel really happy for him dunno y. bk was tellin mi confidin me one day that he felt really down his results were nto getti nanywhere he isnot fit and he just feels lousy at everything. but now he is in ocs and eth. i feel happy for him
i guess GOd is beyond our comprehension. but meanwhiel i m nto superhuman.
and anger is second nature to me. i feel so frustrated.
the kiss of I would understand. at