tomorrow is probably a defning moment.
i badly want to make it into medicine. all my childhood dreams. all my years of education serve up to this point. alas A leels was not the final steppin stone
inded in life there is no final stone.
it is difficult not to worry. not to be anxious.
but i have fait h now that GOd will see me thru it.
remove the iron chariots in my life.
i hope to have lclarity of mind as i pen my thoughts down tomolo.
i ask to be wablwe to write well. even tho i havet writte n anythign in years.
yeah
back to my reading.
the kiss of I would understand. at
5:16 AM
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And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cuz sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be brokenI just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
a record previously unmatched of breaking promises after promises. just what on earth am i doing
shunning everything. is it really that difficult to love in return and develop the attitude. whyere do all my frustrations adn hatred come from. y do i feel so angry all the time. how can i develop a more positive attitude
where do th emillion voices in my hezad coem from.
yet agn i have caused my mum to cry. i have maqde her upset. most poutstanding
yetragn i failed to keept to my promise of bein more tolerant. but i m not superman u know.
i have feelings too.
i cant be who i m in front of the entire world. i just want to screammmmm
but thats not hte way.
i have to be grateful. i ve os many blessings i cant even do simple things to show my grad?
this week was most exciting. i got myt job.
i witnessed lightnin 4 steps in front oif me. it jsut struck down. how lucky can one be.i was 4 steps away to charred meat/nick.
it was really spectacular i must say to see lightnin hit the ground and dissipatin.
i need to stoop thinkin abt myself agn
but i really don;t i hate myself. i hate being who i am.
unfortunately. i shouldnt i should be thankful.
the kiss of I would understand. at
6:28 PM
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