Saturday, March 11, 2006
life is not musical. ipod is deceiving it puts a tune to evry scene u observe. for someone who observes everything ard him that makes alot of difference. watchin ppl is one of my fav past time
i wanna get into medicine. real bad. its been a dream since along long time. yisha yisha gamu lol
ok i wanted to be a pilot too but thats not possible so yeah its been doctor since. that noble profession. where u know alot look smart in white perform operations in a room while time stops for the world outside as the yhold their precious breath.
Nuis open house was crowded filled with familiar faces who knew u a few months ago but well..
anw went there listen to nursin g and medical talk. weather wads hot lazy to walk. oh rhymes..erm yeah more or lessk now wad iwant and what i have to do. SPFOs has another lame talk i wun be conend agn i have applied since ages and the yhave not called mi for interview or ath of that sort..i know i wun malke it to ocs my bmt was screwed up the moment i first got of that nice ramp.
(ramps are not nice really in pri sch i like ramp questions in science abt friciton and stuff) ok side tracked
hais iwanna save lives mug alot totally lose myself in one task. i want t obe impt and not just feel impt as many jobs out there will convince u other wise. Yes u are havein g a very impt job u ll blah blah blah but lets face it
READ READ READ
ok see cheogn did a no show today disappointin. hm then i went for cell not as i nteh game as in church. but there was no cell cos of a funeral service. well i didnt knwo anyone but yeahwent ther esaid lots of prayer shook lots of hands intro myself many times wished and comort the relatives of the deceased. set up tables..hmm have i changed?
i dunno deep down? i still wantt owin i stillbelieve in outshinin ppl pushin myself t othe limits bein the best. im a complex competitive piece of shit. i used to thk that faith adn religion make ppl weak that im one man for myself. i ma the one personi can trust and depend on. the rest of the world ard me maybe helpless but i m not i m different iwill one day ctrl ppl. yeah that waas nick. i changed? i found it hard t oaccept that my leg was down that i could n show of f and be ridiculously outstandin durin my bmt. ireally wanted to be garang to be admired and respected..i mus tbe the best i mus t go ocs..but then thing s cahnge alot
suddenyl finishin route marches pasiin ippt and completin soc call for applauses. call me cynical but i know not what to thk anymore.
right here right now i shall take one thing at atime. i will do mybest wadeva postin i get.
i ll pout ont he best front adn attitude.
i will not worry abt the uinnecessary
i will focus on task at hand get int omedicine.
read upadn do well
be an outstandin doctor someday. use all my energy o nppl who deserve help.
i answered some qns today which ..
will u go and help the guy? if u walked past ( there was this incident where a guy had all his impt company fliers flyin in the wind at a traffic light junction he swas furiously tryin to retrieve them but wind was strong and cars were drivin over the ads no one stopped tohelp.he was really porr thing. ie was on a bs the opp lane. of course i wanted to do sth if ther e was a bus stop infront near by i may get off the bus to help. btu to be asked that qn.. ijust felt cold inside. i dunno how to explain but i felt questioned. as in ok any word i use may be strong but i felt my character adn personality bein challengeds by someone who know me for sometime alr . and may i say a rather long time.
no matter. i must have sounded liek a monster in teh past.
think ZOAN.
the kiss of I would understand. at