Onaji sora shita

i see a man runnin down a long road alone.
maybe limpin maybe not
he doesnt know if he is first or last in the race. he doesnt even know if there is a race the world could be in front of behind.

it is one of those day where it is raining cold and
and someone gets a bucket of water and splash it in ur face
it is one oft hoseday where a warm shower aint enuff to keep u warm
tho u cant tell if it is better warm.

he they liove a life foregin to mi.
i feel small
useless and demoralised.
no one understands

but as far asa all livin things are concerned
they wil ldo everything to survive

and for man to survive, he needs his dreams.

the kiss of I would understand. at 7:03 AM .

where am i standing now?
i feel so lost.
where will i go from here

i must cast these doubts aside and do my best. i must have faith that things will be better. i trust HIM to deliver me. i must keep my promise tho.
ill not tell myself that it is difficult anymore. no room for slack.

help me find job help me get into med help me settle the tides in my heart help[ mi perform exceedingly.
help me. thank you.

the kiss of I would understand. at 8:22 AM .

hey dun be a fool. somebody say we are number two
hmm well well we are no wad?

sigh one week. of reality. my cv life was crueely stolen away.
enter a world of stagnant water.

2005. well my platoon lets see i m the smalelst size second shortest.
i had no frens when i first when in.
my job is to study hard real hard.
al ot of brains and memory work involved something that should come easily based on the records i have if u so call them

i have an impt job really signaller one worthy to be proud of. i just wish there was a lto more physically trg and not aircon comp based all teh time sigh

i guess life could be worst so i should count my blessing.
trafic is murder i take two hrs to get home and it was jam all the way for a reallow slow coach(bus)
i really hope to get disrupted to go for med

well after i learn how to drive. apparentyl i ll soon enuff which is really cool.
i guess i m there for a reason.
so far i have helped a lot of really blur ppl.
i guessi m there cos of my elg injury its meant for mi to take time off to recover.its still nto fantastic i ran today and it hurt but yeah sth i ll get used to alr.

my segeant is a really gentle nice guy. so there agn i m blessed. now that i m home my mood is ten times better. as in at least ihave mood. i ve zero mood in camp but nvm.

i m mr. handsome when nobody bothers to rmb each other name.
but everyone calls mi there howembarassing. oops.
yeah

the kiss of I would understand. at 5:22 AM .

this is it.
back to the many uncertainties

i hope i m just hinkin too much. need to stop indulging in this habbit of worryin i guess
muster the strength i need to have faith. to stop ein too sensitive and guessin ppl.

ppl re difficult way to difficult to handle

tml gotta travel far far far away.
i ma long long way from home
and i miss my gf so
in the early morning march
when the cold wind blows

will i get where i want.
will i be able to get int omedcine?
diisrupt early or not nvm

will i enjoy my new postin learn new stuff make lots of frens?
will i be a better changed person

will i get into med? be a gd doctor someday
will i be able to hold or say what i want to when the time comes.

scared indeed.
no one knows. but thats life know one needs to know ath.
its called personal.

okane? daijyobu to yu
demo shinpai koto ga aru

my jap sucks now. mum is worried abt family finance i hope i be able to give tuition soon. or somehow earn enuf f save enuff. talki nabt thousands here
hais

and the nthere is my bro who totally not copin not studyin. totally obsessed with not eatin enuff or i dunno his looks? sigh worry for him really he doesnt seem motivated. drivin my mum up the wall.

i wish to trust u. i really do. u have given me so many gifts alr i feel like i m lettin the world down.
suck t humb

the kiss of I would understand. at 6:17 AM .

grit ur teeth u shall.
dun speak of someoneelse when u hope it aint so
random and mysteriosu many things maybe
nevertheless even more worryin what ur heart carries

the father is not the son. delirious son is the father.
resigned we all must be
pretend if need be

hope a futile hope.

i dunno ath abt my vocation. dnno enuff. there is always teh choice of lookin at hings from the bright side. no there aint no choice. configuration is a natural process. should u choose the painful way then painful indeed it will stay.

shrug ur shoulder and laugh for u are not the first batch of humans to roam.
u renot anexplorer but one in ur own right only
truth be told many have come and gone. pain shame burden all exist in a flick of time.
a wisp of memory
that someday the memory will fade enuff for u to alter and find urself a reason.
belittle urself all u must.
but no good it will bring to u.

ultimately the choice to choose is ur oni gift.

reality check:
my mind is in a whirl now. its alr sat. reality will sink in pretty soon. tho wad kind of reality i know not.
vagueness. will i obtain the fuel i need the direction i seek? i pray hard.
play all day and lose sighto f wad u are
think all day and lose sight of wad u were.

i wanna playall day hang out with frens eat good food be really smart and popular.
but hat can oni do so much to temporary relieve my worries.
worryin is a sin i indulge in 24/7

the kiss of I would understand. at 8:31 AM .

well before that. i swam today. spiderman. swam lessthan hahanvm. another painful day. painfully boring. heartache as today slips away. ok its 12 so it has slipped away. two reasons one co it means i have to be mr military again 2 another day. well i maplplyin for ntu too. yeap.

dun hide away. dun cover ur face. oh treeyard.

Describe a person who has had an influence in you, and share with us why and/or how it has influenced you.

I would like to think that I have been through a lot in life. However that would be foolish. I have always been very competitive, still am. I subscribed to the belief that winning means everything. It meant respect, friends and admiration. I was competitive fiercely competitive and eager to excel in my grades. I wanted to be the talk of everybody; the Mr. talented.

Sometimes that gets in the way greatly, on most days I feel inferior insignificant, I begin to believe there is nothing important in life; to belittle every blessing I have. Sure, the world still cheers you on.

When I was in secondary 4, I felt lost and despair. My grades were slipping initially. I wasn’t the top student anymore. Certain “friends” had betrayed my trust. I thought I might be on my way to self destruction. She came along. A new classmate in my Japanese class. She happened to take the same bus home with me. I was weary and wary of making new friends, mostly dreading the need to impress people. Fortunately she was really nice friendly and unassuming. I felt really comfortable with her. We could talk about anything under the sun do all sorts of funny things on the bus 53 that would make the eyes of other passengers roll. Taking bus and having meals with her was my therapeutic sessions (almost) I felt normal again.

Of course through it all, the thoughts that race through my, if not all our minds are mostly hidden behind a mask, cleverly concealed. Otherwise the mental hospital could be quite filled with people. She was one of the key reason I knew where I want to go after O levels.

She introduced a new world to me. She was actively involved in community work. Absolutely compassionate, feeling for others was second nature to her. Following her around homes of the juvenile delinquents, physically and mentally disabled, I came out of my well. I learnt to feel for others. More importantly I gradually realized how fortunate and blessed I truly am. I was hungry to help out, secretly yearning to be like her, I wanted to increasingly participate in more community work. Inspired.

She was more than a normal friend. Present tense. I have been a person without faith; who sniggers at people who believed in God. I thought they were weak that’s why they needed to believe in a higher power. I thought God could be a joker tormenting vast populations of people.
She promised to prove me wrong. I think she has. An unfortunate incident happened to me within the first three weeks of my BMT. I, as usual, eager to impress, injured my leg during an SOC training session. I couldn’t walk and had to use crutches to support myself. I felt shattered. My dream of excelling going to command school seemed light years away. I thought I may be OOTED or recourse. But she advised me to pray. Faith. A really suspicious word to me. Nevertheless I pray. I prayed for my family prayed for my friends to still be around for me. After two weeks I could do route march and after a month I was prepared for IPPT. I am convinced that god can work miracles now and I am truly blessed. Victory takes place on many fronts. I never thought I would find mine this way.

Life would probably be very different without her. I can see her shrugging her shoulders maybe even blushing should she read this. Nevertheless. I am thankful she entered my life. I hope she stays. =)

the kiss of I would understand. at 9:10 AM .

some party. haha
sigh today is BOrrrrrrin i hatet o use the word man. its for ppl with no purpose in life and complain too much.
but i really sat at hoem the whole day. bored stiff. really stiff. sigh
wad a waste of one day of block leave.

the kiss of I would understand. at 1:50 AM .

sigh everyone is looking away.
everyone is ignoring me today. my dear yep leader is lost. tried to ask for recommendation letter the nhe nv reply alr. alotof ppl not replyin my msges. my dearsimon breaaststroke buddy has a gf now and no time fo r mi. haha hmm eveyrone says sorry i GTG>

atan datang went running intended to jog light joggin which doesnt makes sense. light reading light leisure swimmin doesdnt make sense anymore too. when i read i feel the compulsive need to understand and memorise when i swim i feel my strokes not fast enuff..ditto for joggin but i cant ru nfas tla. my leg is still nagging such a nagger.

ppl who like to blog enjoy talkin to themselves. everyone is clearly ignoring me.
played pool today with candice my pool buddy then later she had to go off too..but she treeateds! lol we played for many many hrs oni two of us haha but got bored too.
so bored that i went running despite agreeing i shu;ld rest this week.
maybe its a sign i need to do my stuff and be serious go read appyl and prepare haha
but ..its nic k nature to do things in the nick of time. haik nick's time.
everyonei s lookin away pasir ris or my neighbourhood is swarmin with elects..haha those fools.
some amazing race for thier camp i guess. no wonder my junior ignores me too..
only jasmine replies ,my smses.

hmm and my yep leader just said yeah i m busy. busy doing a tammy. yikes.
speakin of that ifelt rather turned out at pool today cos we started playi nsince 11am and ther was no one else except another couple usin anothe r table the gal was really skimpily dressed and the guy couldnt keep his hands to himself despite the re were more balls on the table than her. oops.

the kiss of I would understand. at 3:32 AM .

alone.
a scary word. every dimension of it. but even scarier when u re alone and have no dreams.
when u need to pass each day with no magnetics for it.

tunnel followed by rover rovers followed by tunnels.
can feel the deep dread in me. as i peer out of the window. pasirirs the place of book in. the roads are always fileld with army vehicles. nv meant a thing to me
not until today.
yeap its block leave and its alr tues. that sinkin feelin is all around.

medicine . havent apply yet. its the oni dream i have now. the oni reason why each day there is stil lsth to look forward to.

thsi pendulum state of eing is driving me nuts.
slipin consciously and unconscioulsy into the past and maybe future.
having lots of flashbacks lately

if when u die ur life flashes past u, this is how mine wiuld look liek up till now.
the police man toy car on the floor.
the canteen stairs to the hall
the underpass the newly constructed flat
the first "business" in my pasir ris home
the illegal t shirt business
pushin of trolleys
the new canteed stairs pyramid roof
the faces ard me the bullies the hated chn tcha the malay clique of mine.
the catchin we play all the tiem the punishement in the sun the tcha who called me a black sheepo the hated social studies tcha th oni 7 to make it to em1 the oni two who got into gep. the girl who sat infront of me thegirl who icallvery night jsut to put down the phone. the girl wh obecame les the old old cross country tcha sleepin with a singh the chinese speakin weird frens. thechn speakin best frens the language centre! the vending machine rthe twenty vs guys the fujimoto the rgs gals who i avoided the oni few vs ppl left after streamin. the beloved lc sahara desert the 430 to 630 lessons the canteed the bustop to wait for 53 the walk to the inter change the blue uniform the jap tip the german takin frens the basketball games the weird dance tcah the chorir chairman. the carpet the third wth floro the library the stinki nsecitonals outside the toilet.
the jap trip the bg house the rich jap ppl the jap gals the gal i wantto kiss the colourful balzers fuji mountain the korean gal called gy the koreamn cclass the short chn high pants i laugh at the ahs gal the new class the gal in green the tkgs gal the very very special gal who i m goin to let down who is oin to saeve me the gal whose logn hair didnt suit her the gal who looked much better wit hshort hair. lol the prom photo the clippi nof the tunert o my throat the noisy bus rides. hte numebr of time s more i wanna talk to her. the girl who i let down eventullai the trp to rj the serangoon gaardens i visit th e npss oic the gal whose msg i kept every single one of the gal who rejected me all the time the gal weho is m y best fren the neighbourhood sch gal who loved comics the gla who played the guitar the gal tfrm cedar checkoslavia the firs tbadminton game the first b dae card the ecams the social studies paper th e triton the orientattion the swimin booth th eproud ppl the oni vs guy the guy who was afraid of me the guy who transferred jc the freakin voodoo gal the vs frens who stayed with mi foreva the big yellow tag the dances the dirty water the endless hours int hte water. the gal's best fren the thailand trip the piggy nose the yellow seats the three stooges the band aka ben of brothers the really balck guy with a black face the stressful days pourin over stacks of paper the sentosa trips marche and neoprints ...
the green uniform the island the W sign the cast crutches the obstacles the pain the inability to swim the rock band environment the girl i want to marry. beneath the facade.

the overrated life

the kiss of I would understand. at 12:37 AM .

many many online ppl.
my frens are all online
tonight no need to book in.

whee!
everyone is interested in the same thing wad uapplyin for? medicine? overseas scholarship? oh go try lor aaiay nvm just try lor.
i really really want to get into medicine now.
Why do you want to study medicine?
What do u see urself ten yrs down th e road.
What kind of doctor do u want to become?
What do u know abt being a doctor?
What do u know about the current system?
Do u see any flaws in current hospital systems?
How do u plan to support ur studies?
What do u do in ur jc? How it will make u a gd doctor?
Outside?

ok i have alot of hw to do. i hope i even get shortlisted.
my grades are jsut nice at teh safety boundary i thk.
the whole world is applyin for medicine.
there are few things more attractive i guess.
but its beyodn the attaraction. b4 i sound like en tham its really wad i have alwyas wanted to do,
i knwo many ppl who are gona plly for fun. they have nv considered it s justa matter of ooh i got the grades lets do it.

nvm these ppl.
i ll do my best to get in.
ifeel good now u know no need to book in
had those crazy dream agn. the ones that reveal slightly abt the furture to mi. hais
this one was scary.
i dun wanna to go to war. idun wanan take a life.
rush to wat wait to rush.

the kiss of I would understand. at 5:32 AM .

life is not musical. ipod is deceiving it puts a tune to evry scene u observe. for someone who observes everything ard him that makes alot of difference. watchin ppl is one of my fav past time

i wanna get into medicine. real bad. its been a dream since along long time. yisha yisha gamu lol
ok i wanted to be a pilot too but thats not possible so yeah its been doctor since. that noble profession. where u know alot look smart in white perform operations in a room while time stops for the world outside as the yhold their precious breath.

Nuis open house was crowded filled with familiar faces who knew u a few months ago but well..
anw went there listen to nursin g and medical talk. weather wads hot lazy to walk. oh rhymes..erm yeah more or lessk now wad iwant and what i have to do. SPFOs has another lame talk i wun be conend agn i have applied since ages and the yhave not called mi for interview or ath of that sort..i know i wun malke it to ocs my bmt was screwed up the moment i first got of that nice ramp.

(ramps are not nice really in pri sch i like ramp questions in science abt friciton and stuff) ok side tracked
hais iwanna save lives mug alot totally lose myself in one task. i want t obe impt and not just feel impt as many jobs out there will convince u other wise. Yes u are havein g a very impt job u ll blah blah blah but lets face it

READ READ READ

ok see cheogn did a no show today disappointin. hm then i went for cell not as i nteh game as in church. but there was no cell cos of a funeral service. well i didnt knwo anyone but yeahwent ther esaid lots of prayer shook lots of hands intro myself many times wished and comort the relatives of the deceased. set up tables..hmm have i changed?

i dunno deep down? i still wantt owin i stillbelieve in outshinin ppl pushin myself t othe limits bein the best. im a complex competitive piece of shit. i used to thk that faith adn religion make ppl weak that im one man for myself. i ma the one personi can trust and depend on. the rest of the world ard me maybe helpless but i m not i m different iwill one day ctrl ppl. yeah that waas nick. i changed? i found it hard t oaccept that my leg was down that i could n show of f and be ridiculously outstandin durin my bmt. ireally wanted to be garang to be admired and respected..i mus tbe the best i mus t go ocs..but then thing s cahnge alot

suddenyl finishin route marches pasiin ippt and completin soc call for applauses. call me cynical but i know not what to thk anymore.

right here right now i shall take one thing at atime. i will do mybest wadeva postin i get.
i ll pout ont he best front adn attitude.
i will not worry abt the uinnecessary
i will focus on task at hand get int omedicine.
read upadn do well
be an outstandin doctor someday. use all my energy o nppl who deserve help.
i answered some qns today which ..
will u go and help the guy? if u walked past ( there was this incident where a guy had all his impt company fliers flyin in the wind at a traffic light junction he swas furiously tryin to retrieve them but wind was strong and cars were drivin over the ads no one stopped tohelp.he was really porr thing. ie was on a bs the opp lane. of course i wanted to do sth if ther e was a bus stop infront near by i may get off the bus to help. btu to be asked that qn.. ijust felt cold inside. i dunno how to explain but i felt questioned. as in ok any word i use may be strong but i felt my character adn personality bein challengeds by someone who know me for sometime alr . and may i say a rather long time.

no matter. i must have sounded liek a monster in teh past.
think ZOAN.

the kiss of I would understand. at 6:57 AM .

Let there be love by OASis
Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me?
Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams?
Let there be love - Let there be love
I hope the weather is calm as you sail up your heavenly stream
Suspended clear in the sky are the words that we sing in our dreams
Let there be love - Let there be love - Let there be love - Let there be love
Come on baby blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky
But if it makes you happy
Keep on clapping Just remember I'll be by your side
And if you only go, it's gonna pass you by

in love with the song
i am really kinda happy with life at the moment
or atleas ti loved to thk so. i nv felt mre uncertainity and afraid. my leg may never recove ri fear but fearin is a weakness i avoid indulging in. i ran today and it hurt like crazy icant run fas t anymore? i cant swim properly?
I am jsut selfish to keep thinkin abt myself am i not? kecchi! i guess i need to learn to be contented adn t oaccept that things can be worse at any pt of time.

emotions are biological involuntary bodily reactions by our limbnic system. religion is wad plalce emotions in check?
to have emotions is to be human to feel angry love ahte happiness and evry other sensation is to be human. religion is where u plce those feelings in check. and u feel guilyy and u reflect on ur thts to keep ur sanity or at least at my stage. at my stage, i prob wun do ath stupid so religion is not needed to keep actions in cehck so much. religion makes u feel guily everytime u get jealous hateful and disdaindul of someone else.

that u will be brt onto a higher level of conscious thinking.
i must stop thinkin of myself and what i want i mustn be so selfish all the time.

ifeel guilty. i didnt eat with my mum today went out to eat with greg and some jc frens to eat. kushin bo. good stuff really full now. spent most of the day rea din up in the nat library on wad i want to study. i am quite sure i have always been sure i wanan take medicine but its not that easy to get in..with the interviews and stuff.

most of he gd stuff are placed in reference section not for loan sigh..
patient doctor relationships, medical breakthroughs medical controversies ethical controversies local policies. htere is too much to read up on. and do answer the master question of y do u want to be a doctor?

i want to be someone(ideally)honest simplistic fearless when it comes to dealing with patients? t obe thepillar of strength. or should clinical detachment be prized instead?
medicine is very much an art form. medicine school can oni provide u with the knowledge at best. but the call is up to u to make.

the patient describes to u his day how he feels a nd so on. if ulisten carefully u may even know the number of children he has. but the doctor listens to keywords oni systematically searching for pathological interpretation.
that by it self is an art form hard to grasp.

n oi dun want to be a male model i m in ns and i ha ve 4 As haha stuck up?
i got a phn call todya by this modellin agency to go for interview adn walk in photo shoots. tellin me abtthe numeber of commercial ads their models are placed on haha.

well not now yeah. maybe soon enough i ll ve to downgrade to bve a clerk and ve enough time for a social life i will consider. givin tuition and modellin haha... but till then i wanna serve.

the smile i rmb no matter how much the world changes. the bus 53 route remains in my dreams always.

the kiss of I would understand. at 7:23 AM .

my transformation to bein a trained soldier!

my first parade!

the kiss of I would understand. at 1:53 AM .

the vj i know.

from the welfare room to the lecture to the various frens. and faces various faces. filled with a sense of deja vu now. i rmbed i dreamt i would visit vj feelin this way and by then i ll be using blogspot. weird dreams. the road totally greeted me. that same stretch of road where all my memories lie from vs to vj to parkway to the tkgs busstop to the payalebar station and swimming pool to .. where i grew up the most

vj is amazin for now i spend much time in inefficiency and long waiting. vj isx a place where numerous activities are orchestrated tgt at every corner there lingers an activity that one can oni be curious abt. every rushin face has a destination we know not. talents to be expressed in various forms of competitons and performances.

i had lunch with junior classand my swim team. they train with a club now cool. they are determined to win sth this yr even cooler.i wanted to swim with them so bad.i wanted to go for the next lecture the next lecture. go visit the council room aka my changin g room go for a crazy run b4 s papers. the two yrs in vj pass too fast everyone is on different tracks now. i met one on a train apparently displeased with her results so gonna take the train to reflect and figure thigns outr to spend time by herself which i thk its really cool.

yes it is in vj where i realised many of my talents where i accept that i was goin to be short anw where frens frm secondary sch prove they will be with u always even if we are sepraated in different courses.vj stretched me and has tht me much. sure at the end 4 alphabets summarize our jc education but we know deep down its a lot more than that.

the vj to mi the welfare room and many more ahs transformed so has my p sch or sec sch.

the photos above sums up the vj i experience. and the buildin wiull bethere for many more generations to experience i guess.

now my leg aint good went swimmin in the mornin and it hurts like crazy i cant be as efficient aas last time now my strokes.

sigh i miss sch missthe bus the roads the canteen.

miss buggin every teacher. everyoneis really friendly and interestedi n my hair when i return or rather the lack of it. i feel really proud now. i shall pursue my dreams and not let myself or everyone that has groomed me down. lol

the kiss of I would understand. at 12:24 AM .

PO po po pppp
a new creation. thats what i am.
not just cos i m now private Ng but cos the bible says so.

ord is the next big thing to look forward to? haha ok still long. need alot of luck
blessings i mean of cos.

haha ia want my bmt photos asap man.
wil lcertainly be memorable.
i thk i ll miss it
life is pretty funny
no?

the toughest moments make u tougher no doubt
esp when u thk of them
the memory bank is perhaps our greatest treasures
for every moent u wish for it to be over, u ll miss it at another point in ur life
once upon a time i hated preparin fior As now i miss studyin that deeply

i will miss bmt.
all the route marches
all the psuhin
esp when surrendering lingers allo ver ur head
the feelin of ovecomin every challenge.

the takin of rover and lift and ppl who helped me or attempted to cheer mi up when i wd down
the many many ppl who cared
the frens

the frens who will all move on and leave.
i dun want to be sad today but i know life is abt letting go once agn
fleeting transient

stay in contact are three simple words. alan told me i must promise to stayin touch wit him that felt so touching.
hmm yeah departures i hate em they are nv easy esp for ppl liek me.

i will not forget field camp
ninja everynight
nagging for over zrealous garang ppl
sneakin at night to sing songs to prep for recruits night.
playin guess the next meal
dumping discreetly combat rations
takin secret photos of commanders
over zrealous endless polishin
endlesstekang
low efficiency adjustin
highportinto send arms argh
bathroom singin
cleanin corridor
singing non stop
doing things at nick's time erm the nick of time
soc is sibei jialat
bcct is all wayang
who is a disaster who is always funny.

and the list goes on really.

if my army life gets dull i figureit will
i will ve these memories to fall back on.

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"Summer has come and passedThe innocent can never lastwake me up when september endslike my fathers come to passseven years has gone so fastwake me up when september endshere comes the rain againfalling from the starsdrenched in my pain againbecoming who we areas my memory restsbut never forgets what I lostwake me up when september endssummer has come and passedthe innocent can never lastwake me up when september endsring out the bells againlike we did when spring beganwake me up when september endshere comes the rain againfalling from the starsdrenched in my pain againbecoming who we areas my memory restsbut never forgets what I lostwake me up when september endsSummer has come and passedThe innocent can never lastwake me up when september endslike my father's come to passtwenty years has gone so fastwake me up when september endswake me up when september endswake me up when september ends

hungry.

the kiss of I would understand. at 4:48 AM .

Passing out on tues.
survived 24 clique
got my 4 As one merit lol MAths a miracle.
didnt screw up GP too bad
didnt succumb to the NAvy's hardsell

overall cool passed soc no need retest hahaha

jsut burst all the ugly blisters on my feet. pain
sang on recruits night haha
won third but didnt sing well.

hmm yeah basically quite satisfied with life at the moment but i know such things du nlast long.

life is afterall a standard yes very very standard obstacle course.

PSC no reply yet.
apply for medicine or law?
reply to uk unis?

yeah havent figured out a lot of stuff but i m confident that i ll ,ade the right choice under HIS guidance.

the kiss of I would understand. at 2:01 AM .